happy-ness

I ask myself, how much is my happiness worth? Could I put a dollar value on it? Is it possible to align it with some number of years? Can I weigh it by kilos?

Lately I've been thinking about this...how much is my happiness worth?
how much do I deserve to be in that happy place?
how much have I earned of this happiness?
how long can i hold on to this happiness?

Of course, I am speaking about happiness, most of the times. When you sit down, at a moment of silence and ponder the balance of things. And ask yourself, am I happy most of the time?

Well, are we supposed to be happy most of the time? Maybe it's an illusion of some sort.

The thing is, i am a happy person. happy to be around my family, friends and co-workers. happy to be in the presence of kind strangers. happy to be in existence living in the moment. happy to be at the lake. happy to go shopping at my favourite supermarket, anytime i please. happy to be alive. happy in the presence of a person that rekindles my passion and soul.

I am not talking about this type of happiness. There are levels and places that happiness exist in.

I'm speaking about the place that is in the depth of your deepest soul. The one that you can only hear in true utter silence. The voice of your existence.

happy-ness. do you exist there?