Grounded Tornado
Have you not felt at times like a tornado?
A crazy, aggressive, ever-so-hyper tornado. Spinning and hitting everyone in your way. Mastering the art of apologizing. You make eye contact with them, they see you but they're not seeing the real you.
You don't know how to stop yourself. You just keep spinning and spinning. With every person or thing or goal crushed, you get stronger and stronger.
Welcome to me.
That's how I felt. I didn't know how to stop myself. I was aware of what is going on. But I was not myself....not myself at all.
Two weeks ago, I had a meltdown. Not the yummy sexy type. But I hurt someone. Someone I loved very much. And that's when I decided - Time out. I asked for a time out.
And during this time out I decided that in 2 weeks if things started to look up, get better I will mark it with a change.
This tornado is slowing down. It'll take time. I know that and I am patient. But I've slowed down and this tornado is dying. And that's a good thing (copyright of Queen Martha Stewart).
Yesterday, I shed off 4 inches. I've held on tight to this for years. It's been my prize and joy. What picks me up on a sad hard day. But I had to shed it off. Shed off old tough times. And welcome new ones along with that.
So welcome to the new me on 02112011 :)
A crazy, aggressive, ever-so-hyper tornado. Spinning and hitting everyone in your way. Mastering the art of apologizing. You make eye contact with them, they see you but they're not seeing the real you.
You don't know how to stop yourself. You just keep spinning and spinning. With every person or thing or goal crushed, you get stronger and stronger.
Welcome to me.
That's how I felt. I didn't know how to stop myself. I was aware of what is going on. But I was not myself....not myself at all.
Two weeks ago, I had a meltdown. Not the yummy sexy type. But I hurt someone. Someone I loved very much. And that's when I decided - Time out. I asked for a time out.
And during this time out I decided that in 2 weeks if things started to look up, get better I will mark it with a change.
This tornado is slowing down. It'll take time. I know that and I am patient. But I've slowed down and this tornado is dying. And that's a good thing (copyright of Queen Martha Stewart).
Yesterday, I shed off 4 inches. I've held on tight to this for years. It's been my prize and joy. What picks me up on a sad hard day. But I had to shed it off. Shed off old tough times. And welcome new ones along with that.
So welcome to the new me on 02112011 :)
